At some point you learn to quit...

My heart feels like it's going to be ripped from chest, my hands won't stop shaking, my stomach feels like it's turning inside out, my skin doesn't seem to fit right, Four walls seem to be closing in, My head just keeps spinning and I just wait and continue to wait as the yellow disappears and the pink rushes across the display, It claims 3 minutes, but its been less than 30 seconds. Now the question is what happens next? What's to follow? You can schedule the procedure but the feeling remains, that lack of importance, the betrayal starts and its time to change the cycle. Another line only means another secret to keep, another life to watch disappear out of his eyes, another chest to rise and fall only to never rise again. Another experience to do alone either way it's gonna hurt and it just might break me. It just might be the last bone that fate throws in to see if i will continue to stick around, trying to get back what i lost 7 years ago and 3 years. To imagine a life beginning when its almost certain to end. But should it be up to me to decide? why do i get the responsibility? why is the pressure falling into my lap? I can't even talk to you and somehow I'm suppose to do what I never did before? Somehow I'm suppose to keep going pretending it's nothing when it's everything I think about. Somehow I'm suppose to do something I've never done before. you have stress and you think that gives you a reason to be an a-hole.but I got this three time secret to maintain and it just keeps building and it keeps growing and a decision needs to be made, but it is not one i want to make right now.

Intrigued

I Find You More Intriguing Every Time I See You

It might Actually Be Possible That I'm More Amazed By You Everyday

Your Sex Appeal Continues To Increase With Everything You Do

I Think Becoming A Father Has Made You Even Sexier

You're Amazing With Your Son,

And It Makes Me Want You More

You Defended My Actions, And Spoke Up And Called It Right

The Respect I Had For You Increased Again In Those Moments

Yes, It Might Be Possible That I Find You More Amazing Every Time